Mrs. Lamp:
Just let me say how much I agree with Maple's post about the importance of going to a doctor. I understand your concern about working in a health care environment but what you say to a doctor is confidential and cannot be disclosed without your consent. Entirely apart from that, unless your situation is medically treated it is very likely to get much worse, endangering not only yourself but also your health related credentials. Getting proper treatment is essential to safeguard your professional status, your job and career. Good luck. Every good wish to you!
W.