Selfish idiotic confusing typical bs of an addicts behavior. Sorry if others dont agree with me. It really gets under my skin when I hear these stories. After all the stuff we go through with them because of their addiction to toss us aside. Psh! What garbage!
I am sorry you have gone through this . I have no advice for you other than I hope you find someone who will appreciate the loyalty kindness and determination youve given to this man and that your next relationship is everything he wasnt. I know you still love him and I am sure you have reasons to feel for him despite the heartache he has given you but he is sick and will be sick and I hope your new years resolution will be to start a new yr giving all of you to you and fullfilling your dreams and goals and not with the thoughts of what could have been. For now cry the pain away and thats ok