So sorry you're going thru this. It hurts so much when our children turn on us after all we do for them .You are not alone, put your faith in your Hp - things are rarely as bad after everyone calms down. My AH used to really wind me up and I used to end up yelling at him and throwing him out. I regretted it later but he used to push me past my breaking point. Don't be too hard on yourself. ((Hugs))