Good luck to you in dealing with the scary changes that lie ahead. I don't mean that what you are going to is scarier than what you have been living with, just that change all by itself can be scary. Once you've made the decision and act on it, I'll bet you discover that you've made a positive choice. Imagine a life without all the chaos that goes with alcoholism! What a calm, peaceful existence is possible if you are brave enough to reach out and take it.
Good for you!
SJW