Welcome to SR UltraBunny
Stop fighting and surrender. Acceptance has been a big thing/hurdle for me. If you are entirely honest are there bits of you which think you don't need to quit?
Add these to your things to try:
AVRT (Rational Recovery)
SMART recovery
Allan Carr/Jason Vale books
Posting here daily
Do whatever it takes. And don't feel bad, stay positive. You can do this. I am a very strong person too but this one had me stumped. I needed help. Get all you can can
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