Originally Posted by
ultrabunny 
I'm a very determined person. People say I'm very strong.
Right now, I'm lost.
Been fighting this thing for nearly 20 years and it's just getting worse. This year has been the worst ever. I dread to think what 2013 has in store unless I stop.
Please help.
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Sometimes our "determination" is little more than stubbornness and is far more of a liability than an asset.
As in AA's HOW IT WORKS says "Rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path" ... I have to thoroughly follow their path.
I found that I needed surrender and teachability more than determination to begin to get the AA program.
Alcoholics of my type don't take naturally to surrender...... I seem to have a stubborn "I'll die first before I'll do that AA stuff" in me. God smiles and whispers "I gave you free will, it's your choice".
I wish you the best, bunny.
Bob R