I can't sleep and the dog wanted to go out. So when I took him out about 2 am, the air was completely still, and the cloud cover which we've had for a week, had lifted, revealing a spectacular night sky. There were so many stars twinkling. They looked like glowing Christmas balls, suspended in different lengths from a rich indigo cathedral ceiling. We stayed out a long time.
This would not have been noticed if I'd been drinking. I was never in the present moment, never content, never felt the inner abundance that I do now. I never felt I had as much of a place on the planet as anyone else. I do now. There is a place for me here, now.