Wow I'm sorry you're going through this.
Alcoholism is so destroying.
I think it's normal to feel emotion for this lady. You must have some good memories & history together.
The fact you broke down & prayed shows you are a caring person, nobody wants to see someone go through what this alcoholic has gone through, it is soul destroying.
I don't know what to advise but want you to know we're here for you.
Sending you the biggest of hugs. :ghug3