Take the drugs out of the picture. Are lying, deception, manipulation, suspicion, anger, and worry the components of an acceptable relationship for you? Because that's the relationship you are currently in.
Drug addiction is tremendously painful to experience everyday - not just for the addict, they get to numb their pain, but for us, the ones who love them. Now would be a good time to define what it is you want in a relationship, set some boundaries accordingly, and have a plan in place for if those boundaries are violated. Really focus on yourself and how you're feeling, and how you can start to make yourself feel better. It's very easy to lose yourself in the chaos of a loved one's addiction.
I'm sorry that you're going through this, but I'm glad you found us here. You are not alone, keep posting, it helps!
