Forever does seem daunting, I guess not just with alcohol but with many things, a day at a time I can do though
I always acknowledge the "voice" "beast" whatever, when it rears it's ugly head and for each day of sober time I have behind me I have controlled the impulse when I feel it, I guess I was just hoping eventually it will disappear but I'm sure as time goes by it will fade and I can live with that
thanks guys, I appreciate the feedback