I understand how you are feeling, but let me see if I can explain this. No one is blaming you, but what stood out reading your posts is you are giving other people power over whether or not you will drink. Go back and read what you are writing.
Even the headline, rejection makes me relapse.
If I felt that way, I am certain I would relapse.
So, consider for a moment, a slight shift in thinking.
Rejection makes me feel like drinking. I don't know what your recovery entails, but I might say, when I feel rejected the beast tells me to drink.
Then think it through. If you drink, will you feel better? Last times you relapsed, and you are back here, right? Which tells me that we already know that the answer isn't in a bottle.
You quit, which means you have the power in yourself to quit. That's great.
Hold onto that power and resolve not to give anyone else the ability to make you do anything that would harm you. You can acknowledge feelings, but feelings aren't facts.
Just because you have a feeling doesnt equal, makes you drink. You can do it.