Great post.
Sometimes I still have to work really hard at staying in the sun and being grateful and happy for all the things I have and not getting lost in the disappointments, struggles, or sadness.
However - years of living in that 'identity' you speak of made be behave in ways that were not a true reflection of myself, my values, the person I saw myself as. I didn't like me very much. I wasn't very likable. Ugh. I'm very glad I have enough recovery to no longer be in that space.
Have a great time tonight!