Thank you Doggonecarl and TTBABP! I will probably be coming on here alot, especially in the late evening hours as that is "witching hour" for me.
There is a part of me feeling some real relief to have somewhere safe to talk about this and there is an equal part scared to death.....my computer is public in the sense that my oldest daughter and occassionally my husband use, and I am not in a place yet that I feel ready to bring this out to light. Which really if I am honest with myself means I don't know if I am fully committed.
Hands down, this is going to be the hardest challenge of my life to date.