More grief
So this afternoon I have to put my dog to sleep.
She's old & hasn't been well & it is time.
She was a pound dog that my girls & I got about 5 years ago. She would have been put to sleep then if we hadn't of taken her.
We never really knew how old she was but she aged quickly after about 2 years of being with us.
Even though she is old & a bit sick she never fails to smile at us, greet us each day with a big "hello" that actually sounds like hello lol & she dances on all four feet around us & used to chatter her teeth at us when she was real happy.
I feel yuck after feeling so good but recognise that this is going to be extremely hard for me as I will be with her when she goes & that I will be in grief afterwards. My girls & I will have a little service for her & bury her at home. It will be real hard on them but we will go through it together.
It's been a few months of grief now with breaking up with abf & now more.
I guess I know this too shall pass but I will accept that it is necessary to feel the grief to get through.