Welcome Daisy, stick around, read, post. You'll be surprised how many people are in your exact same situation at this very moment. As you said there, drinking helps you not worry about certain things, but now you are adding to those with worrying about the drinking. Join us in the Class of December thread if you like, it does help to just be able to talk about it openly. And don't be afraid to talk about it honestly with your doctor, they are the last person in the world to ever judge you about it.