Patsy, you will be okay! Alone is hard. I am in the same boat, ending the off and on co-d with the X. I let him back in because I am alone and then realize it is so chaotic I don't want it anymore. It is a blessing he is letting you go! Just have to take time to get to know you again. Do you have support of friends/family?
Well, your here now!
Blessings!
Sunriseshell