I know how you feel. My partner is the same. He was physically abusive when I stood up to him so I learned just to let him sleep it off. But he never apologised in the morning. Recently he has been verbally abusive even before breakfast after waking up still drunk. I lost my job too when he turned up drunk at my office at 9.30am. Everyone else thinks he is a warm and loving person. He is in hospital with liver failure now and says he doesn't want our relationship to continue. He is surrounded by help and I am on my own. I hope he makes a recovery and worry about him but I am really struggling to cope.