Welcome Misti. I am sorry you are enslaved to a drug that is supposed to help your addiction. It is a sad indictment of our medical program that doctor's who are able to prescribe suboxone don't really understand how to use it for treatment.
We have a forum for suboxone. Perhaps someone there can help you.
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