With a bit of sober time under my belt, I realize how skewed my thinking was. When sobriety wasn't all I hoped it would be a few weeks in, I thought it was a lie,a hoax, etc. Now I see that judging sobriety on the experience of a few days or weeks was ludicrous.
I spent all that time abusing substances and a whole lot of other things, gave THAT life, plenty of time to fester...but wasn't willing to give recovery a fair shake, was ready to throw it all in after the blink of an eye.
It was just one more example of magical thinking that ruled my life.
sobriety is better now that I've given it some time to "take" and allowed myself to get comfortable with it