Pam, not much I can add to what these folks have already said. But posting here, talking to your therapist—you rock. Keep reaching out whenever and wherever.
You know what to do as far as the bottle goes; you know sobriety makes everything more manageable, including the really bad stuff. Especially the really bad stuff. My dad's dying; docs give him a few months at most. It's tough, I know. Don't make it any tougher on yourself, OK?