Originally Posted by
alaina02 
Thanks everyone great suggestions. The group i attend is small and we rarely have newcommers. I have yet to have a sponsee and I havent even talked to my sponsor about this yet. No resentments. No anger, fear, or dishonesty. I just keep having the thought of 1 drink would be fine and possibly even fun. I am currently working hard with prayer and meditation
I think your answer(s) can be found in many of the above posts.
The fact that you have not discussed this with your sponsor troubles me.
I have "gone through my times" in recovery. AA literature talks about the "gray days". If you are working your program then all will be well and "this too shall pass".
Talk to your sponsor and the trusted oldtimers in your group, they'll clue you in.
If you are "on the beam" then stay the course and you'll come out wiser and stronger.
Nothing gets me out of me faster than helping someone else.
Get with your sponsor, ask God for help and get into action.
All the best.
Bob R