A good exercise to help me stay in recovery
A good friend that had over a year and half picked up a white chip last night. I went with her to be of support. It scared me very much. I am approaching 60 days, will have it on December 5.
I sat down and wrote out what would unfold if I took one sip of alcohol. That is how it starts for me. I take one sip of my husband's liquor and it sets off a chain of events. I keep on sipping it until it is obvious by the bottle that I have. Then I fill it with water. Then I get paranoid he will find out so I go to the liquor store to replace it, and while I am there I get more for me.
All of these horrible things will happen and I will be so full of anxiety that I feel like I am going to die. And the guilt will be overwhelming. My work and school will suffer. My husband will suffer. I will have to pick up yet another white chip.
All of those things will happen if I take ONE SIP.
It is a good reminder of where alcohol will take me. It will take me to my knees.
I think I will stay sober today and be so grateful for it.