It probably will take years hunny. And yes I understand how you feel about it being a horrible story in your life. But somehow it willmake you stronger, somehow shine brighter, someday. Have you heard of Bashar's elastic band theory...it states that the further we are pulled back into the darkness the further forward we fly into the light once released. Like an elastic band. You will get stronger and then more able to deal with things in the future, more able to give advice, wiser, more understanding etc. Just try and learn from it all though....try not to make the same mistakes again like I have :-/
Hugs.