Right now I cannot ever see this anger going away. It is not an active anger, where I want to act upon it by expressing it. I feel like so much was taken away from me by my addict husband (we are separated) and I just dont feel that it will ever go away. I have heard so many times that we forgive for ourselves. This is a concept I cannot really grasp. How do you forgive when the anger is always there? Maybe I just dont see that it will pass in time. Is it possible that it never will? When the things that have occurred were so great and crossed so many lines that were so important to me...Events that I will never, ever forget, like this last pregnancy (I am getting permanent birth control after this baby is born) being the worst experience possible...So many disappointments and things I will never be able to get back or redo. How could I ever forgive that?
