I agree with Paul, 9 months is a long time to go without working the steps. You really need to get a sponsor to take you through them and show you how to have a spiritual experience. Step one is to identify the problem, step two, identifies the solution step three a decision to apply the solution - follow the directions of a sponsor, but step four is the first action step. Without action there can be no recovery, we remain powerless and the obsession will return one day.