Hi Newbeginnings. What a great name - Newbeginnings. I hope you are serious about it. You and your children have a fabulous life ahead of you, but in order to get it you are going to have to make some changes. He won't change. He's just a sick twisted addict doing exactly what he wants to do. And the meth will make him even more dangerous. I recommend codependent no more. It's a book by Melanie Beattie. It will give you insight into your behaviour and directio for a better future for you and your children. Keep reading and posting!