Originally Posted by
lilgolden73 
lol Fern.....no one wants to be on the receiving end when I start swinging. I just hate that I have to say goodbye to everything and everyone I've ever known, its part of gods plan for me I suppose, but it hurts like hell!
Though I disowned them all for good reason, I still mourned them as though they were dead. It did hurt like hell because it was all of them at once. I knew I could never allow them back into my life anymore, but there's always a part of you that only remembers the good stuff and you get nostalgic. It took me a while to release the guilt of doing that, but it was the best decision I've ever made.