MissyShelle, I know exactly the sort of feelings you describe as I have felt them myself, but I don't believe that there's even the tiniest kernel of truth to the idea that being a former drunk leaves us too broken for anything whole.
The truth is that all humans suffer and all of us, to one degree or another, are "broken". But that does not make us, any of us--not even drunks!--too flawed to deserve or be capable of anything decent, whole and good in our lives.
It is okay to be sad, but remember that you are valuable.