Hey welcome to the forums! Recovery is a pretty darn hard process to finally get started in, I know I sure tried numerous times before I finally got it right. Its well worth all of the effort though, I wouldn't try to run away from my family if I was you! Family can be an excellent support, as can coming here, and a Doctor to keep updated on you so nothing goes bad! It took an inpatient rehab to get me to see the light as well. Best of luck!