Wavering
Have things ever gotten so bad that you can no longer use the typical recovery tag lines to stop yourself from drinking? This is not about having one drink and trying sobriety again. I mean just let alcohol have its way with your life because you have no more will to fight?
This is seriously not meant to be melodrama or a "poor me" post. I am really just thinking about how I can stay sober now that things have gotten SO bad for me that I'm having a hard time wanting sobriety more than relief.