Thankyou V. You make a lot of sense. There is still a part of me that hangs onto control. MY will needs to take a back seat now. My life is unmanageable in its present form. I juggle too much and my career and work commitments take precedence over sobriety too often. I don't sleep well because my brain is too active.
I over-think, I don't focus, I get easily offended.
I'm praying for guidance with this now. I haven't got anyone else really I could ask to listen to me as my meetings are mainly attended by men.
I'm sober and have no desire to drink. I don't feel I am about to relapse but I need to do something.
I recognise the huge strides I have made in lots of ways and I've lost a lot of the fear that ruled my life in some areas. I'm far more confident and less anxious. I just need to move this forward now.
I want what the old timers in my group have. I need to take my lead from them.