Well October friends, I hate to say that I am back to Day 1
Things were going really well and I had around 2 weeks of sobriety. Was feeling really good about it all. And yesterday I was really looking forward to having a productive day off from work and I totally ruined it. As I walked to the store I kept telling myself not to do it, just turn back around and don't buy any beer. But it was like some fog descended upon my mind and I went into a familiar, automatic mode and got some beer.
I feel really frustrated, defeated. I feel like such a screw up, like I was so happy to be staying sober and messed it up for no reason. Day 1. Again.
I hope to be around sr more these days. Thanks to everyone for coming back time and again to post here, it's really a nice place.