Tarot, I know it is extremely hard. This is my second month adjusting to the change. I still see him everyday. He is not using but has medication at his aid. It is a really hard thing to do and you must know that you may think you are not strong enough but you are. If you put yourself to the test you will see how strong you are. Maybe not right away but with time, friends and family by your side you will find your strength. The important thing you must understand is that the current situation that you are in is draining you. you are forgetting what and who makes you happy and ultimately who you are. Give letting go a chance and see if things change for the better.