Welcome. I cannot add much to what has already been said but as someone here said once:
If moderation was an option we'd have a Moderation forum here, full of moderation success stories.
I agree. People without a drinking problem would never google for, and therefore never find, SR.com like me, you and hundreds of others have. The fact that you found this place means you most likely have a problem.
There is great support here. Keep posting.