Doubt it will make you feel better but my first husband - not only did he cheat on me, but he took our 2 children to live in Europe and it took me close to 4 years and every penny I had and horrible horrible stress...and lawyers and courtrooms and trials...to get them back in the US. And they were so little when it happened. You can get through this and be thankful you didn't waste as much of your life with him as I did my ex (8 years of marriage)...My drinking career started after my 2nd child was born and my husband started working late every night and I started finding the suspicious texts and emails...I had 2 kids 22 months apart, in a new city with no friends, no family...I started drinking and my husband didn't care because he didn't care about me. I know that now. The best thing you can do right now is keep standing tall, like you message - keep you head up princess or your crown will fall...