A quick update:
I did not contact her yesterday.
I maintained my no contact.
At the end of the night I noticed on Facebook that a mutual friend had wished her happy birthday.
So in a moment of weakness I went to the page of my XAGF.
She had just changed her profile picture.
She was snuggled in a booth, out for her birthday dinner with her new man.
It is interesting. She has always been a fairly private person. Never posting too much on Facebook.
She never liked declaring her private life to the public.
Now all of a sudden she cannot post enough about her new love with sober living boy.
He posts on her wall all the time. And she posts on her wall all of the time.
They seem to have a need for everyone to constantly know the love they have for each other.
When I first saw the picture I was really hurt.
But then I was glad that I had seen it.
The picture made me feel so glad that I had not contacted her.
And made me realize how bad I would have felt if I had. And how mad I would have been at myself for doing so.
No more of her Facebook page!
I know that this is not going to be easy.
I know that I will have plenty of sad days.
I know that it will take awhile for me to get over her.
But I also know that in time I will.