I feel for you! I have read your post before and I have been where you are w/the whole meet someone in recovery while you are supporting/loving them only to be left. Your counselor friend is so correct based on my experience! I am glad you are listening to the advise. Trust me, It will end in a horrible disaster. I was always there to pick up the pieces....big mistake! Back and Forth Back and Forth! Ashamed...Yes I am but I still allowed it. Painful...Yes! The worst! Take care of yourself and I am truly sorry you are going thru all this....This too shall pass! I keep telling myself but know that it will.