Yes, absolutely I can relate. Mornings are the worst for me at least depression wise. I do not want to get out of bed and I am anxious bad. My doctor has explained this to me as it is when cortisol levels are highest (too much cortisol makes you anxious) and can make you feel bad. I am not exactly in the same situation with you drug wise but yes mornings are absolutely the worst. I hope this calms down as my benzo taper/anti depressant taper starts to get regulated. But opiates are my true DOC and yes it seems that I want to use them the most in the morning to help me get out of bed and get going.