Free at last
Thank you so much. I am in so much pain right now. I have again sent my h away after only being home a few days. All the usual promises and so sorry. I love him so much and he is one of the kindest men I have ever met who put me on his pedestal. But also knocked me off it and kicked me to the ground. The constant violent outbursts which as he explained are my fault have finished me off. I do feel I am one of the nicest people i know with many close friends ( he does not have a single one) but have turned into a jibbering angry nervous wreck. The fact I seek help on here he turns against me and says I read to much and make it up in my mind. The final straw for me has been my teenage son who I have seen the last few weeks die inside. He is worried sick for his dad but also worried sick for me. This has made my decision easier for me. I have to put my children first. I can choose. But I am so sad and lonely and have lost my soul mate. We each don't have other family but I am so lucky to have my wonderful friends and my children so I will learn to cope somehow I hope. I just have to stay strong and not take him back.