"Trying but just want out"
I am new on here as well, and I do feel for you. If your gut tells you to leave, that is what you need to do. I came back to my ex after our divorce because he "promised" no more hard liquor, which was fine for a couple of months. It very rarely, if ever, lasts. Get your life together and enjoy something besides an alcholic. If they don't want to fix themselves, you nor I can either.