Hi Babyjane,
Just by the looks of things, and in my opinion, it looks like you are being overwhelmed with all the stuff you are trying to do. It happened to me. I constantly wanted to be doing 'something', going in different directions, doing different things. Your main priority needs to be your recovery and staying sober. Put a ton of effort into it and you will find that everything else just falls into place over time. I know it's hard to look at it like that whilst you're in the middle of everything but trust me. If you put time and effort into your recovery it will pay off greatly in the long run.
Natom.