Aww you guys :,) thanks. Im a huge bookworm. I get lost in them like Im Matilda or something. I feel like a 5 year old stomping my feet "I don't wanna on my own!!!" I just hate how fairy tales aren't real. I feel like Im Wendy and he's peter pan and I sit and wait at the window to no avail, I want to leave neverland, and even in the midst of recovery his development stalled at that of a young boy because of using. He lives at his parents now, and was at a sober house before, and its just so strange that he has to ask permission for outings, his finances are closely monitored, curfew, overnight visits have to be earned. I know its awesome for him and his development, but sheesh... I believe in the Bible and I understand obey your parents and I know he needs those rules but it still doesn't change the fact that I feel like Im 25 and he's 17 :l sorry for the vent. ugh just frustrated.