yeah i know it can be hard lily. i was the first of my friends to have kids, and i lived on the otherside of the country to my family. when my mum died, i had just separated from my husband, and all my friends were busy. was a tough time then too. but you know what? years later, i know, no matter heads my way, i can do it on my own. i can rely on myself. its better when i have someone to share it with but i know i dont need it to get through it. find a new hobby, or read a book. find something that is all about you and what you want to do. mine was my motorbike. i love the speed, the freedom, and met a lot of great people through it. time to think more about how you want your life to be, and how you going to achieve it, and stop just moping about what your friends have. (i bet it isnt as good as you think it is or they are saying!)