Struggling on and off for years, I have finally and recently admitted that I am an alcoholic (not that anyone needs to use that word--but for me it is the most concise way to put it) and should not ever ingest alcohol again.
For me I don't think there will ever be a "should I try social drinking" moment again. Which is good because social drinking is what usually broke my non-drinking times in the past.
I do worry about the "aw, I am an alcoholic so just go ahead and drink" addictive voice that may pop up at some point. (Luckily it hasn't happened yet).
Tonight I am going to an AA meeting for the first time in 15 years. They few I attended all those years ago--I was so not ready and thus really didn't get anything out of them.
Even if I get nothing out of the actual meeting--for me to attend a meeting is a huge step for me.
Keep on posting and keep on trying. I know I will.
