Despite knowing I'm not going to get any empathy from him I always think if I play it like this or say it like that I might get through. Stupid. He's told me today he will be coming round Saturday to get some post and talk to me. I want to get it all out there and talk but going by history and what everyone is saying here it might be worth considering just going out. I don't want to cry and plead in front of him, it's degrading and it must make him feel quite empowered. But yeah, I also want to hear what he has to say and say what I have to say. Just don't need another weekend of potential stress. Don't know....