BabyJane,
I relate so much with what you were saying it's pretty crazy.. 'letting your head become your reality' really stood out to me. My head and my screwed up thinking are what really get me into trouble some days. I am so thankful for this website.
As I told you guys, I do not have a sponsor yet. But yesterday really lit a fire under my ass to get one. It's not every day that I have bad days like that, but when I do- I've learned this much- I desperately NEED to reach out. Something that has always been super hard for me as I try to be as independent as possible. But another thing I've learned however, is when I separate myself I am dwelling in my 'I'llness. When I reach out and make that 'I' a 'We' I am on my way to 'We'llness.
So I really just want to thank each and every one of you for replying to my post. Knowing I can reach out and receive such compassion and empathy is an incredible feeling.
Much gratitude and love -jessica