How would I relapse? Oh well thats easy considering I just did 2 days ago after 40+ days sober. All it took was driving up to Napa Valley, getting out of my element, to help my aunt move. I know she has mental problems so first thing I say when I get there is "i need to use the bathroom," and she had a treasure chest of pharmacuticals I grabbed as many oxy and xanax I could and ended up popping pills all weekend and as a result crying my eyes out in shame guilt and self hatred today. Maybe next time there wont have to be a relapse.