Old 11-05-2012, 08:27 PM
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EternalQ
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My recipe for relapse would be to forget how utterly dependent I was on alcohol. Forget how hopeless and totally helpless I felt. Forget how deeply ashamed I was of it, and how much I had to keep secret from those I love. Forget how I was basically crawling through life. Forget how I was a person divided against herself and never ever felt whole.

In order to not forget, I post, particularly with those just starting to recover. I learn from them as much (if not more than) they learn from me. I also have read my old posts to help with my denial. I did that last month when I completely blocked out what I was like only nine months ago. I was living a sub human life and if I keep that fresh than it will prevent relapse.
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