I've always taken my freedom from addiction seriously, but part of taking it seriously means (for me) that it can't be my whole life. To me, the point of living a life free of addiction is to have...well...a LIFE, which for me means a balance of things. At the start I did need to put more time and effort into simply learning how to live without booze; it was such a strange thing at first! But over time my lens got broader. For me the process was fairly natural. If you are having the same experience, my suggestion would be not to fear it. Living a full life is a reward of recovery, not something to be afraid of.