Hi Meg. I understand how you feel - I've let these things eat away at me, too. I finally have decided in order to heal I'll have to accept what's impossible to change. (Dee helped me with that when I first came here.) My losses involved family members, too - some people didn't even try to understand - and that really hurt deeply. I know I would never have treated them so coldly.
I always was willing to forgive people when they didn't act the way I thought they should. I wanted to hold on to their friendship, so I would overlook hurtful things. I expected the same would be done for me - but in many cases it wasn't.
At two months sober, it's still fairly early in recovery for you Meg. It took me awhile to let go of the hurt and confusion as I came out of my fog. It happened, though. New friends - a better life - are going to be yours. I'm sure of it.